Please,don't tell me that..

i think i need to stop..

now i understand what my bro told me..

i really am a coward but i want to return to my world

a place i feel belong..

i dont think i'm ready to walk again until march

i tried not to think about it..but oh God,its really scary

i'm sorry jie,i'm not that strong

i already told my mum as you advise me to
and i told kyra too..

elli and dira-neesan had already know bout it

i dunno wat mizuki and jessen reaction if i told them

the less the better i think..

and i dont have the heart to tell hafiz that..

i just cant..

he'll know eventually but not from me

i dont need pity..and its ok for him no to love me back..

at least he didnt lie to me..

march next year..

i need to finish my final project..

i'll finish my study on april and go for industrial training

i'll grad in july if everything is right..if not

i'll leave everything to you dear God..

for you know what best for me...ameen..

i have a dream last nite,i got marry to a cute girl

as mum said something happen with my body and im now a boy

and my family didnt want da media 2 find out

n there's only one thing in my head,

how am i going to tell hafiz that im turning into a boy?? XD

at the door,inside the house,during shopping..

he's hunting me in my dream XP

that girl is so innocent,she was force to marry me with sum amount for her family

of course i only treat her like a little sister,

apart from im being confuse with myself turning into a boy,

(this gotta be a dream..LOL)

i always want to have a spoil little sister

aisha my sis..she just cant fit into the image

we were about to adopt a daughter when i woke up

this dream is just like my "childhood dream"

i always want to be a man like my dad

and after dad left,i wish to adopt as much homeless kid as i can

as i grow up,i start loving myself and accept me for being me

and i still want to adopt at least a child =)

to give the child as much love as my dad gave me (^o^)v

Gwen Stefani: Don’t Speak

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining

Don't speak,
Don't speak,
Don't speak,
Oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good,
I know you're good,
I know you're real good
Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la
Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush
Don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts