im thinking (wow..i did that =P)

i meet kyra michi the other day

and i've been thinking a lot..i did..

she's the first person who really told me to break up wif hafiz last 2 years

it seems that a lot of things happen 

after she's  gone to aukland

and im still thinking

ya,im a selfish person

but i guess its true..

i have to let hafiz go sooner or later

i hope he can find a cute gf for himself

im no good for him and i think he deserve a happy life

me too..want to be happy

i'm going to treat him as a friend from now on

um..i'll try

i actually smile warmly at his photo rather than the longing

so i take it as a good start

there's still a lot of things i wanna do in life

and sometime i got scared

but i think what i want most is the feeling of close to god...

i miss the feeling...

if it was only for my stupid mind 

i would want to quit everything

and return to my own world

but i dont want to live that life again

i had enough and i dont think mum, dad, risk, my family

wanna see me like that

im going to do my best to feel living

i actually feel like im gonna adopt a baby now XD

but i dont want the child to miss me if something ever to happen to me..

gomen neh joe-kun...

i did it again i guess..

daijobu..god is always with u =)

my love,i pray u to always be happy