28 Sept

hello  ===<@

i still stuck as RA as in research assistant in my college

actually i need to make it from the beginning

yesterday we got a meeting

and you know how he put it

~flashback~

DR: how long have you said you start this?

ME: after my practical which on..July..and then..as i told you after eid that..

DR: *cut me* 2 months? how many time has been waste, do u notice?

ME: *suppress urge to straggle him* im sorry

ME: (in my mind: havent we talk about this before?? and do yo know how many people said that i should never do it on my own that i need guidance that this is practically as if my own paper??)

~end flashback~

i dont hate him,honest

in fact i love him

not love love but love..

u know..

as in i love you mum, i love u little brother that kind of love

actually though some people talk bad bout him,

i dislike them for talking like that

i respect him as a teacher and such

but that's why i got bullied said a friend of mine..

btw,that's remind me..

omg,im sooo telling u this

ok,read me..

u know..

i kind of got myself a cousin

how cool is that?

omg..

and u know how does it happen?

and oh yeah, its a "he"

well, the story should be begin like this

its during my practical at that marine park

it was me with dira and zain and ley

and its him,ley!!

i dont really realize the sequence or the consequence 

but something like this happen

i already tell myself that im going to bring myself as a "lady" there

so i act like one of course

i LOVE acting

well,as i always am a good actor so i live as a real actor

feeling like a lady and such

then i dont really remember what happen 

but i have a feeling that this ley guy remember me of someone

he remembered me of my dear cousin..or rather cousins actually

and why is that?

well,im not really sure how to put this in words

what im going to say is

i have few older boy cousin that i look up at them when im in trouble

or they just being a real big brother as they can around me if that is easier to understand

and i thought of ley act as one

i cant treat him as a friend

i mean, i dont see him as a friend anymore after few weeks hang out together

we, as in me, dira, zain and ley really hang out a lot mind u

and in the beginning the staff thought us as double couple

as me with ley and dira with zain

that is long before i have this cousin feeling though

and the reason is,

this ley guy,

actually jokingly suggest us to married them as they want to share house with us

they dont have a place to stay there

and of course,we're not going to share with them 

that's how the marriage thing come out and it did make a ruckus as the staff start gossipping

during that practical, ley had been nice to us 

but practically zain is stuck with dira 

actually he's just being himself but i dont know..

so i thought ley was being a thoughtful person

and one day i told him

"u know ley, i think of you as my cousin"

they made a weird face and laugh of course

i told him im serious and i want to adopt him as my cousin

he refuse flatly

cool

well, if he accept, i'll be the one who'll call him weird

he saved me 2x as i got sexual harassment 

as he save me that first time,

we are not really that close,

just friend and as i thank him, 

he had this weird face as saying why-are-you-making-such-a-big-deal-its-nothing

but as time pass by, we four are kind of best-buddy or maybe not really best but u get the idea

then he start talking with me

and we become close and our acquaintance there some of them believe we are real cousin

actually zain and dira bought it too

i dont really know how dira bought that story, she is my bestfriend for three years

but i dont feel like explaining so im still not

there, thats the story of how i got myself a cousin..LOL

like i dont have enough cousin of myself..uh oh.. =_="

and the best thing is,

the reason i can be that close with ley 

though we practically never talk in campus 

is

i already know he had a fiance and he's really not my type

he's too skinny to my liking!!

and he hate fat people..

there, we dont suit each other..

*i think jessen has asked me before if i want to rent a house with him and few others if i got to sabah.. God forbid and im not.. thats really one awkward moment to reply him though.. i told him its not going to work out and i dontjessen but i dont believe in teenage hormone and i do believe in God.*

ps: whenever ley ask for my help or whenever i thanks him for helping me, he would say this "arent we cousin?" or "well,we're cousin" he's cute..LOL

ps2: i found this livejournal and im writing there as my everyday well nearly everyday..and it can post my twitter which where i really being myself so i love it there and i dont write this long there..only gist of my everyday and retweet post so its really is lighter and less headache for you to read =P